So, as you know it has been quite a while since I lasted posted. A lot has happened since then. I’m not going to make excuses for my absence from this blog I am just going to say that little time, and other things have gotten in the way. Having said that, I am back. So, let’s see what has been going on.
Since I lasted posted Suze and I went to Nova Scotia, Suze moved to Vancouver, I worked a month straight with only one day off, and I have been studying for my red seal every chance I have, and of course, over a year has passed since I started this blog. In a nut shell that is it. Of course there are details which I am about to get into. I think though, I may keep this post fairly short, I have to ease back into it. Anyway, here we go…
Let’s start with home. Anyone who reads this blog regularly, or who has gone back through my archives will know that in March I lost my mother. Knowing that, you must also realize that going back home for the first time since that happened wasn’t easy. I was actually kind of dreading going home, knowing that my mother wouldn’t be there and not knowing how I would handle that. Thankfully, I have a great family, great friends, and an amazing girlfriend who really made dealing with it all much easier. Of course, it was still pretty difficult, especially being at her house and every once in a while expecting her to walk around the corner, or to hear her laugh from another room. But all in all it wasn’t nearly as hard as I thought it was going to be.
It was good to be back in Nova Scotia again though, it is amazing how quickly a place that I have always called home and a place that I love dearly, becomes less of a home and more of a place to visit. It really didn’t feel like home to me. Maybe because my mom isn’t there anymore, or maybe because I have been away long enough, I don’t know. I just know how it felt and it wasn’t what I expected.
After a visit to Cape Breton to meet Suze’s dad and step-mom, a night out with my friends, a night in with our friends, and visits with all sides of my family, Suze left. She had to get to Vancouver to start school. Three days later I was on a plane heading towards Montreal.
It was a year to the day when I had gotten off a plane in Montreal with nowhere to go, no friends, no job, no place to live. It was much different this time. I knew where I was going, I knew how to get there, and I knew who I was going to see. I was excited, but it was different than the excitement I felt the year before. There was no fear, or terror mixed in with my excitement. I had purpose and direction this time. After a bus ride and a few subway cars later I walked into Bistro Olivieri (my old work) every face was the same, and every face was glad to see me. When I left work in march I left in a hurry. My mom was sick and I needed to get home as fast as I could. I didn’t get to say goodbye to the people I had grown to call friends. This was my chance. I sat at the Bistro from before they opened to way after they closed. Talking, drinking, joking, and eating. I was reconnected with people I honestly never thought I would see again and it was a great feeling. When it all become too much, me, more than a little drunk, I headed up the back stairs to my hotel room, slept the night and flew back to Whitehorse the next day.
Since I have been back I have mostly just worked. I have either been working at the restaurant or studying for my red seal. All this is fine with me. Suze is gone and I need a distraction. I am happy to say though, that she is coming home tomorrow for thanksgiving. I am so excited to see her. It has only been about six weeks since I have seen her but it feels like much, much longer. She is here for four days then goes back to Vancouver. Then, at the end of November I will be joining her. We will be together in Vancouver until the end of the school year and then, we will go where ever the wind takes us.
So, a lot has happened. I went home, went to Montreal, Suze is in Vancouver, a year has passed both since I started writing this blog and since I left Nova Scotia for Montreal. Looking back over the last year of my life it has been a bit of a whirlwind. A year ago I could not have imagined everything that has happened. I would have never guessed that I would be living in Whitehorse. I would have never imagined I would lose my mother.
When I got on the plane in Halifax this year headed to Montreal, I thought about the person who had made the exact same journey the year before. He and I are so different now. I have grown and had so many experiences I never thought I would have. It is incredible the effect one year can have on a person.
Now, what is next? Well, I write and pass my red seal, move to Vancouver for a few months and after that… I guess you, like me, will just have to wait and see.
Thanks everyone for sticking with me over the last year, through happiness, loneliness, loss, and love. Having an outlet like this has meant more to me than any of you could ever understand. I know I have been neglecting it over the past while, but I’m getting back in the saddle.
Until Next Time!